. . . . . it takes two wings to truly fly . . . . .

DAY = RUINED

TARA LYNN IS FUCKED STARTING JANUARY 4TH. Especially since EVERY OTHER SHOW SHE GETS WORK AT IS CLOSING THIS MONTH TOO SO SHE DOES NOT HAVE MUCH TO FALL BACK ON.

I so needed a reason to panic about the money situation that I'm constantly worried about as is. At least the Marquis will have a new show in March. But ... it's March, and who the hell knows if it will even flop in a month or not. Also Ace was supposed to be there until January 18th, so this means less eyecandy, which is just sort of the fail cherry on top of all of this.

I need a Christmas miracle in the form of either a magical NO WE'RE GONNA KEEP GREASE FOR A COUPLE MORE MONTHS announcement or a magical phonecall and regular need in another theater. Or to find a pot of gold. I am trying to stay hopeful and not freak out yet since we still have a month, but. Hahaha! orz

I am an easily set off blubbering cry-baby vagina, lately. And probably beat my entire pre-teen/teen record of times I have cried at people in one month's time alone.

Getting your ass on track isn't so much the stressful part that keeps turning me into said vagina. Though it poses its own speedbumps and irritations.

Having to pick up so much slack and dealing with someone who has no sense of priority or wise-decisions and just keeps making it that much HARDER on EVERYTHING to the point where you want to scream and throw them out the window? Is.

When the hell did this role-reversal happen.

And now I am a whiny grumpy bitch and am happy I am working tonight because looking at cute men on stage always makes me feel better.

Also, thanks to /v/ I am somewhat hooked on EVO for the SNES. I am currently in the dinosaur age though I hate playing on my keyboard so it's that much harder. Someone recommended a $10 playstation controller adaptor, but do those work for other emulators? Since the PS has about the same button configuation/number as an SNES controller, and I know on the emulators you can set those kind of things and. Yeah. If anybody knows anything about this sort of thing, I'd appreicate it because I would save for a $10 adaptor and just use a PS controller for my games. Since the SNES only adaptors are a lot more expensive.

GUESS WHO REMEMBERED SHE HAD AN ADAPTOR FOR HER PS2 FROM WAY BACK WHEN SHE GOT ONE FOR HER DDR PAD.

It works too. SCORE.

Haha SO today! Ha! Well for starters I am possibly a bit SAD because I am nearly sure a friend of mine IRL isn't going to be able to make it to come sit with me tomorrow to see mah show for closing afternoon. And I'm sure nobody on my flist who lives near enough to the city would want to dish out money for a ticket by tomorrow afternoon to sit with me and go out and eat or something after. So I'm not sure what to do, eh. /)_(\

And apparently being really really honked off wasn't enough today, so it decided to also skeeve me the hell out with something else.

So much baw!

So TONIGHT AT WORK. Was a roller coaster of HAHA OH GOD ORZ to :D to hating the entire world.

It started ... when the show started! THE MUSIC STARTS, THE CURTAIN GOES UP.

... and the microphones are out of whack. There is a giant problem with the sound system in the back of the theater. Most of the mics were just NOT WORKING so you couldn't hear the talking and singing, would suddenly WORK FOR 10 SECONDS AND BE SUPER LOUD and then die again. There are SOUND EFFECTS THAT SHOULD NOT BE THERE GOING OFF ALL OVER THE FIRST SONG, including the beeping that's supposed to connect the first song to the second song-- of course, the horn did not go off when it was SUPPOSED TO. And the poor cast is just TRYING TO GET THROUGH THE FIRST TWO SONGS LIKE THIS since sometimes there are tiny problems, so it's okay! BUT THIS OH MY GOD THIS WAS TERRIBLE. It was painful to stand there and watch/listen to.

So the second song ends, and the curtain goes down. There is an apology and announcement that HEY WE'RE HAVING SOME FAIL TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES, PLEASE HOLD. And we're waiting to there for 10 minutes. And the audience is like "D:?" and we're all just like "... ... ^_(\;;;"

EVENTUALLY IT IS FIXED and the curtain goes back up to continue where we left off. And when the curtain goes back up the cast are in their places. James is on top of the car and just smirks and does this WIDE-ARMED SHRUG and hahaha it was so hilarious. And the show went on! The new guy playing Dupree is pretty okay, too, he was cute! And he brings his own thing to the show. During the Baby Baby number, James runs up to the microphone and HAHAHA he adds this little thing as a joke and goes "hey, the mic's working okay'" IT WAS CUTE AND LOLSY and yeah, after that period of awkwardness, things went well.

Then during the last number, Donna, who I was working with, comes in with a bag and shows me the shirt she got me from the souvenir shop. I am like OH, COOL. :) Show ends, people leave, theater is almost empty when people are chatting it up a little with us. And I hear them being all woo! Then I hear Donna say yeah! Tell your friends! They have until Sunday!

We are closing this week. :/ Donna got the shirt because of that, and went OH YOU DIDN'T GO ON A BREAK YOU DIDN'T SEE THE THING POSTED IN THE ROOM and I am just FREAKING OUT ON THE INSIDE like what no. No. No. And unless there is a miracle that will not happen, Sunday is our last performance.

I HAVE NO HAPPINESS ANYMORE. o/ It's true in a way. Th-the last couple of months have not been as bad as they would have been if I had nothing to be ATTACHED TO, something to just LOVE THAT MUCH and squee and fangirl over. Something I could go to and sit at and watch when I wanted to CRY and KICK BABIES and just have everything shitty happening HANG OVER ME and I would leave and it would all be OKAY because I would be glowing and in a much better mood because it would KICK THE ASS OF MY EMO MOOD SWINGS and hump me and I would love it and hump it back.

So I went fuck it, and got my ass the souvenier book we have there. And now I am sitting here like oh cool that means I probably won't get a chance to GROW THOSE BALLS I WAS TALKING ABOUT. Not to mention that until the theater gets a new show (:////) I will be floating around other theaters so my work will be flimsy. Since Lulu took care of me there. AND I AM JUST NOT THRILLED WITH THIS, much more so because MY JOY IS BEING RIPPED FROM ME. And it's just so RETARDED because every single person who goes to see it leaves and they LOVE IT and there are always STANDING OS and TONS OF LOLS and dlkj augh augh augh.

Th-the only possible thing left to cling to is the hope of the album. Donna said she talked to someone and they might still release one. And they were supposed to do something for this Central Park thing in July and I am going HEY WHAT ABOUT THAT AND.

I am so upset.