So TONIGHT AT WORK. Was a roller coaster of HAHA OH GOD ORZ to :D to hating the entire world.
It started ... when the show started! THE MUSIC STARTS, THE CURTAIN GOES UP.
... and the microphones are out of whack. There is a giant problem with the sound system in the back of the theater. Most of the mics were just NOT WORKING so you couldn't hear the talking and singing, would suddenly WORK FOR 10 SECONDS AND BE SUPER LOUD and then die again. There are SOUND EFFECTS THAT SHOULD NOT BE THERE GOING OFF ALL OVER THE FIRST SONG, including the beeping that's supposed to connect the first song to the second song-- of course, the horn did not go off when it was SUPPOSED TO. And the poor cast is just TRYING TO GET THROUGH THE FIRST TWO SONGS LIKE THIS since sometimes there are tiny problems, so it's okay! BUT THIS OH MY GOD THIS WAS TERRIBLE. It was painful to stand there and watch/listen to.
So the second song ends, and the curtain goes down. There is an apology and announcement that HEY WE'RE HAVING SOME FAIL TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES, PLEASE HOLD. And we're waiting to there for 10 minutes. And the audience is like "D:?" and we're all just like "... ... ^_(\;;;"
EVENTUALLY IT IS FIXED and the curtain goes back up to continue where we left off. And when the curtain goes back up the cast are in their places. James is on top of the car and just smirks and does this WIDE-ARMED SHRUG and hahaha it was so hilarious. And the show went on! The new guy playing Dupree is pretty okay, too, he was cute! And he brings his own thing to the show. During the Baby Baby number, James runs up to the microphone and HAHAHA he adds this little thing as a joke and goes "hey, the mic's working okay'" IT WAS CUTE AND LOLSY and yeah, after that period of awkwardness, things went well.
Then during the last number, Donna, who I was working with, comes in with a bag and shows me the shirt she got me from the souvenir shop. I am like OH, COOL. :) Show ends, people leave, theater is almost empty when people are chatting it up a little with us. And I hear them being all woo! Then I hear Donna say yeah! Tell your friends! They have until Sunday!
We are closing this week. :/ Donna got the shirt because of that, and went OH YOU DIDN'T GO ON A BREAK YOU DIDN'T SEE THE THING POSTED IN THE ROOM and I am just FREAKING OUT ON THE INSIDE like what no. No. No. And unless there is a miracle that will not happen, Sunday is our last performance.
I HAVE NO HAPPINESS ANYMORE. o/ It's true in a way. Th-the last couple of months have not been as bad as they would have been if I had nothing to be ATTACHED TO, something to just LOVE THAT MUCH and squee and fangirl over. Something I could go to and sit at and watch when I wanted to CRY and KICK BABIES and just have everything shitty happening HANG OVER ME and I would leave and it would all be OKAY because I would be glowing and in a much better mood because it would KICK THE ASS OF MY EMO MOOD SWINGS and hump me and I would love it and hump it back.
So I went fuck it, and got my ass the souvenier book we have there. And now I am sitting here like oh cool that means I probably won't get a chance to GROW THOSE BALLS I WAS TALKING ABOUT. Not to mention that until the theater gets a new show (:////) I will be floating around other theaters so my work will be flimsy. Since Lulu took care of me there. AND I AM JUST NOT THRILLED WITH THIS, much more so because MY JOY IS BEING RIPPED FROM ME. And it's just so RETARDED because every single person who goes to see it leaves and they LOVE IT and there are always STANDING OS and TONS OF LOLS and dlkj augh augh augh.
Th-the only possible thing left to cling to is the hope of the album. Donna said she talked to someone and they might still release one. And they were supposed to do something for this Central Park thing in July and I am going HEY WHAT ABOUT THAT AND.
I am so upset.